losing access

A security audit late last week took away my permissions to our production environment. A few tasks are now just sitting in my Actionable folder until such a time as I get that access back.

To be honest, my first reaction when I couldn’t hit prod was to login to our credit card processing web portal. I logged in successfully; whew, that means I’m not getting fired. My second reaction was to ask why. I did so innocently and curiously, because demanding access to prod is fightin’ words for some folks. It’s been an interesting day to say the least.

It sucks to lose access. Giving the DBAs scripts to run won’t satisfy every need I have to hit prod. The day will come when one of the DBAs will need to join some 3 hour Webex because I can’t troubleshoot it alone, not without access to prod. There’s plenty to keep me busy in the meantime, but I know for certain that my boss won’t allow anyone else do my job.

On the brighter side, it was someone’s birthday today in the office and there was cake. I didn’t eat any but I did have a finger’s worth of icing from the tray [as is my custom]. And I was rewarded for such restraint because Mr. Weight Scale told me I’ve dropped 3 pounds since last week. That’s 49 pounds in a little less than 6 months. So many people spend years trying to lose weight with no success; the kind of success I’ve been met with has been humbling and rewarding.

New Diet

So about 3 weeks back I was challenged by one of the company directors to lose some weight. He pulled $20 out of his wallet and put it in front of me to buy this book called The Beck Diet Solution. I’ve been reading the first couple of chapters and it has a few pointers, but I can’t say I’m swept away by it. But I have learned two very important lessons thus far:

  1. Food tastes too good to eat such little variety. Eating less volume (1400 calories a day) means I can’t satisfy myself with how much I’m eating. On my cheat day last weekend I ate lunch at Sonic and mostly regretted it. It all tasted the same. Fruits and vegetables are where the flavor is at.
  2. I want other things more than food. Last week we celebrated a coworkers birthday in the office with a birthday cake. I really didn’t want any. Someone was being kind and cut a piece and put it on my desk. I didn’t think twice; I brought it back to her saying I appreciated the thoughtfulness but I wasn’t going to eat it. “You don’t want cake?” “There are things I want more than cake, like lowering my risk of dying of heart disease by age 60″

I couldn’t believe the words were coming out of my mouth. Still can’t, but I guess this is just the new me. I’m going to bed a little hungry tonight, I know I’m going to wake up ravenous and I’m looking forward to starting the day with a healthy breakfast.

I’ve lost 10 pounds in the last three weeks. It’s the easiest 10 pounds I’ll lose, but there’s more to come.